I do not weigh myself anymore.
I’ve been struggling with a binge eating disorder for quite some time now and got deep in to thought this afternoon.. You, yes you, have the choice of binging. You are in control. Your mind will lie to you and say eating makes you feel better but once you tune out those voices and truly listen to your body, your spirit- you your physical self ultimately has the decision to overeat. Endure the temporary discomfort or binge.
At the moment, would you rather feel anxious/depressed/stressed or feel anxious/depressed/stressed along with loated/regretful/guilty/ashamed?
All eating will do is make time go by faster and leave you feeling even worse than you did before deciding to binge.
Think of all day tomorrow. How will a binge right now effect the rest of your day and your entire day tomorrow?
Think of the people currently in your life and think of all the opportunities you are given each day to encounter new people. It is impossible to strengthen relationships and grow close to anyone when feeling so ashamed of yourself. Our personalities were all designed to have light. You do not have the ability to shine that light and grow spiritually when you are at constant battle with yourself and food.
What you feel right now is emotional hunger. Your stomach is not hungry. Your soul is hungry. So no matter how many cookies you eat, no matter how much chocolate, pasta, chips, ice cream you decide to eat, believe it or not, your “stomach” will still feel empty. Physically, you’re going to feel full and bloated, but mentally and soulfully, you are still hungry. The only way to fill that emptiness is with love. Start with yourself. Not until then are you able to fully love other people/receive love from other people, which in time and patience, fills that empty void.
Time will go by whether you decide to binge or not. It is your choice to count the days, or to make the days count. Good things come to those who wait and genuine happiness comes from loving yourself by honoring your body and spirit, rather than your mind/temporary feelings.
I’m planning on rereading this any time I feel the urge to over eat.
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